InsaneJournal

Current mood:	pissed off
Current music:	Paramore - We Are Broken

Apology, but only in the Greek sense
Don't you just hate trolls?

LOL
(Anonymous)
What can I say? For the most part, you just talk crap. You almost sound like that fat comic-store guy from the Simpsons.
The context is two posts back. Completely random.
For the life of me, I will never understand why I make such tempting troll bait. I keep largely to myself, posting to personal journals and places where you won't be notified of the post unless you choose to be notified by subscribing.
I don't go around squealing about KAWAII BISHIES!!, I don't crosspost millions of icons to twelve communities at a time (...I don't think I've posted icons to a comm in four years), I don't pretend to know Japanese when I actually don't, I don't write story-wrecking Mary Sues and force them on people, I don't make substandard AMVs (say what you will about them, there is no way to call them substandard in the post-Youtube world), I don't tell people that their cosplay sucks, I don't create terrible porn with your childhood heroes, I don't get involved in ship wars, and, despite my urges to the contrary, I do not go around and flame Complication fans just for enjoying the game.
So why. The fuck. Do people. Troll me.
There are THOUSANDS of better targets in fandom. Dorkier, more annoying, more obnoxious people in places where you might actually have to interact with them, IRL and online. I don't do that. I keep cheerfully to myself, largely because of MAJOR social anxiety, self-esteem issues, and a paralyzing fear of rejection. Not to mention that I'm extremely image-conscious and try to present myself as being intelligent, mature, and tolerant of other viewpoints (even if I privately think that some of them are...well. I'M PUBLICLY TOLERANT, and that's what matters).
And people. Still. Troll me.
What. The fuck.

So, you know, of course I freak out when I get the comment notification ("LOL? Are they laughing with me or at me?"), and even more when I read the comment. My heart rate races a little, because I'm a panicky little thing who's desperate for approval and terrified of the opposite, but don't use it against me: I'm not pale and pimply, I'm not sweating, I'm not panting. I'm not insane. I'm just nervous. "What if The Mighty Anon is right? What if--god forbid--there's something wrong with hating and parodying Crisis Core? What if you'd have to be a socially worthless uberdork to even think of it? What if I'm nasty, mean, hateful, undesirable, wrong?"

So I review my whole journal. Look at all the entries, friends-locked and public. Look at all the posts, review every word and comment.
You know what I found?
Nothing. Not one word that implied that there was anything wrong with me aside from a tendency to make nerd!culture references (and if you plan on hating somebody for that, man, you have a lot of journals left to troll) and a tendency to mock--ON MY PERSONAL JOURNAL--games (not people, GAMES) that I don't like.

So I have no idea what the fuck that person's problem was, whoever they were.
Now, I've got the culprit narrowed down to two major options:
1. Some non-fan using IJ's random page feature ended up in the wrong fucking place. Suggested by the lack of pot-kettle-black awareness, not suggested by the fact that they skipped the first (far dorkier) post on the page, which was just a huge inside joke about crossdressing and boysnugglin' and a;fajf;ajf MAKE FUN OF THAT.

or

2. It's a Crisis Core fan, probably here through the recent pimping of uncomplicated ("OMG, SHE HAET MAH ZAK? H0R."), since I'm a moderator there (and how else would they find this journal? Seriously, what are the odds of being a Random Page victim?). That would just be...hilarious. "Complication fan trolls personal journal, wanks alone." Supported by the fact that they skipped the first post for a in favor of one with a less than favorable PARODY of CC, but in conflict with the fact that they thought the Simpsons reference was an insult (I don't watch the show, but I'd imagine that they were going for stereotypical nerd imagery. Golly gee, anon, I sure do find that insulting EVEN THOUGH I'M A NON-FAT GIRL WITH IRL INTERESTS *SHOCK*).

I'm all for anonymous commenting in public communities and stuff, but personal journals? Petty. No one forced you to read it, so at least have the spine to add a name (be it an LJ/IJ handle or a link to a profile elsewhere) to your comment if you're going to complain.